I had this highly anticipated thought in my high school days.
A simple question like this simply came up to my immature mind, only because we had a kind of an argument going on that day, during the lunch break. The two people, who were in this audience-backed debate, was myself and my friend.
The argument at the school was just a trigger to me to get the rusted ball-bearings and the worn out pistons in my scarcely used mind, back to for a job like this...
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| A Hydraulic Brake |
I was holding the side for Engines as the most powerful thing and my friend was supporting the "hydraulic brakes" thing. I very keen on making me believe that I really wanted to get all my points in the argument convinced to my friend and to finally make an impression that I would win..
But what happened to me was a magic, and it still remains a wonder even to this day!
The next day, I had come to school with fully known facts about powerful diesel engine's and their capacity in doing Herculean tasks which couldn't be much efficiently by anything else in specific fields, the cost efficient working, advantages, etc.
The way I entered the class was much like a star-scientist, who comes into the place like he found a solution to a 500-year old science theory's contradictory concept! I even oversaw my friends who said "Hey, Good morning punk! What about your debate?".
The thing was I couldn't let my focus and attention be drawn out by some of the silliest things and, which means to me a sure failure at the debate after having quite a challenging task and a show-off thing that would eventually come to a downfall if I did fail!
Suddenly, a female voice in the background of my thoughts! "Hi, Kashyap! Good morning."!
What's that? Something in my mind itself? Or is it someone for real? "I don't feel good today. What's wrong with me?". I was determined to show off as I said earlier. But, this feeling of an uneasy going of time made me a little awkward, in a sense, I was starting to regret why I took this strange, unwanted trouble on myself.
And again the voice broke out - "Busy with your debate thing?.. Well, good luck for that!".
Now, my mind was making me turn my head back to that voice that was kind of disturbing me, but had been giving a smooth start for the day. "Look who it is!". I said to myself. "Oh! today is my lucky day, whether I win or lose the thing with that debate guy! Damn that thing, man! Today is my luckiest day!"
You might wonder what the hell happened to me after a short time gap passed between my thoughts. Well, the girl who was talking to me from behind, in a one way conversation was my CRUSH. She was my love, in my heart, which never ever dreamed of any such thing and had only spent its 16 years of service, along with giving place for things like the love for muscle cars, classic bikes, especially Royal Enfield Bullet and Indian(the American motorcycle which had been stopped since long decades!) and all the things that related to wheels.
And now, I really appreciate if you didn't ask her name here. The simple reason behind this, me, as a first-time love struck guy, with not a single idea of what true love was, is a simple thing! THE POWER OF LOVE!
What happened to me later that day still remains a wonderful magic, like I told you before, mate!
I turned to her and I replied - "Hi, good morning! Sorry, a little hurried up today! Don't mind...". She seemed to grasp every tone off my voice and I knew that I shouldn't possibly let her know that she was my first crush and I didn't mind treating her like a Goddess of Life and even worshipping her! That would distort my reputation about my character, with which I was well-known for, with all my show-offs, negligence towards the idea that, love stories, all liked by everyone, and school students earned their first experiences with that in school!
An irony as it may seem, I now totally wanted to scrap idea about the debate issue, for which I was standing on the edge my toes, and really wished time to bring us together until my quench for spending all the time of my life with her came to quite a satisfying climax! I wanted to talk to her for centuries and wanted to keep staring her innocent, cute, for a hundred millenia! Stupid love, huh?!
It did happen, bro! There was a change in the time table and the strict geography teacher, whom we all kind of disliked, was to come to the class for his hours! My place on the bench was on an unwanted side by me, because it was the most favourite and most wanted place for the teacher! Sorry, Mr.Geography Sir; I am shifting my place to the one diagonally behind her place!
"Thank God! Today, I ll take all the favouring times and try to stay near her. Whatever may happen! I couldn't miss her sight. I couldn't miss her even for a second! Let me accept that I am in love, Kash!".
I couldn't believe myself! I was sitting just behind the most lovely and beautiful girl on the planet:-) Lol. I really loved every second of time, every moment of my life now! What more could I ask Him for?
All of a sudden, we could see our sir coming. "Awe. Come on, Sir!. Why so soon? It's been a couple of seconds since I came here!". At least I was happy that he wouldn't call me and make me sit in his favourite spot! That was the feeling right now that was coming out of my heart! "Place is first dude! Girl, comes only if this place is mine!". I could hear myself loudly grumbling this. Huh, what else could a poor guy like me pray for? He couldn't live his life if the girl was not in sight, literally!
I don't know how the whole hour got over in a short time, like 5-10 minutes!? Was it the whole 40 minutes that I spent seeing this Beauty that was glaring to my eyes like an angel? Or didn't Sir see that I was not at all present mentally in his class?? - I didn't even bothered to know what had happened in the past 40 minutes of my day dreaming, or love dreaming rather! As I said, it was really a lucky day!
It was lunch. And suddenly my friend with the debate issue was dragging me to our daily place where we used to have lunch, for the debate! His eyes shone like he had already edged me out and was on the hoods of his triumph over a dumb-head like me! I really didn't want to waste my time in a debate and miss my feelings which were all flying in the air!
I told him - "Pal, I don't feel good! Let me go to and get freshened up!", after I felt sudden uneasiness, having no idea what the reason was.
"What happened Kash? Is everything alright? Here, let me come along."
"No man, its alright. Just a headache it should be. I can manage. Carry on with our guys, bro. I ll meet you at our "adda"."
"Alright Kash. Come soon. Careful, alright?"
"Yo", I thought I almost bid him a good farewell and walked away.
I was now in the wash room getting myself a cold wash with the face. I did my hairstyle with the wet hair. I came out, looked into our geography Sir's old scooter in its mirror. After I was looking good enough to talk to her, I went straight back to the class.
"Where the hell is she!?". My eyes looked at each and every corner for her sole existence and in disappointment, turned back! I thought it was all over. By the time she comes, the right time, mood and feelings wouldn't be there with me! Crap!
I was about to leave class and came up walking slowly towards the door only to take my exit. I came out of the class and now pushed my hands into my pant pockets, like a guy who comes out of a railway station after he embraced his girlfriend for the last time.
"Whoa! Its her, isn't it?"
She was talking to my another best friend leaning on the walls of the parapet, that were standing at the balcony's edge, in order to support the short grills of the floor where our classroom existed! I took a little curiousity, even though I felt a bit dejected deep inside!
It really would have been odd if I simply joined their conversation which I was curious as to what it was about. Now, it was really difficult to see them together!
"What's this? She and my best friend, together? My friend never talked to any girl in his whole life, and this girl who is destined to me is enjoying the time with this fellow! The hell with my fate!".
God! That was an unusual reaction for myself! I hardly used to worry about anything at all?
And now, "Am I taking this matter seriously? This can't be true!"
I didn't hesitate to join them in desperation to meet her very badly! God, LOVE IS POWERFUL! Ain't it, dear?
The next is little dramatic as it may seem, but that really was what happened that day! The scene still dwells in my heart, rather memory, even today, so strong that I feel like I am enacting the same role even at this moment!
"Hey Kash, heard you have a headache. Howz it now, man?"
"Yeah. Its alright now. So, whats up? You didn't join the boys at the "adda"?", I turned to "my" girl, " Hi. Had your lunch?". I felt so stupid now! But I didn't have anything in mind to put out as an other question! I said to myself - "Chaltha hai!, these two are not supposed to be together today, that too at this time". Of course, it was an important time for me! I was considering the talking to her about love and her stand on it, added to the casual talks.
"How did your debate go?" , she asked me.
"No, that's still not given a head start" , my tone was hardly audible.
"I have some news for you", my friend said now, keeping his hand on my right shoulder.
"Oh, whats that, man?" .
"We are committed, bro!!" .
I was not sure whether what I heard just now was a real thing or I was daydreaming!
"Yes Kashyap, I had crush on him from 3 months. It was growing everyday. And today, I happened to propose him instantly! I only prayed God that he accepted ! He did, Kashyap!" . She took her turn too.
Both of them now, set their eyes on mine, very curious to know what reaction I would give at the first place!
I couldn't still believe that a best friend of mine could be ever related with a girl who gave me the feelings of first love for the first time in this entire playful, cool, kiddish life!
I was divided into two! One with almost a couple of tears that would start rolling down the face in a few seconds. The other holding the facial reaction from within and giving a false smile.
I had to pull myself together and respond to the long waiting "couple" and show myself the way out of the scene. I finally did. I knew that I was about to return to my old life of kiddish,playful and irresponsible behaviour and stay with the same feelings forever.
"Hey! Really?! I couldn't believe what you are saying guys! Come here man, give me a hug! CONGRATULATIONS you two!!!!" , I hugged my friend with a hard feeling for myself. After all, he was really lucky! I didn't find any reason to continue standing there and be a trouble for the world's luckiest pair!
"Damn!"
The next minute, I was walking out of the main building, my hands still in my pant pockets. I walked towards the place where our "adda" was, and found my friends enjoying their time with each other. I missed the sight of my best friend who was with "her" , and would be expected to be missing in our company for most of times in the whole future, since he was a "committed" guy now.
I came to the place and my friend saw me. "How are you now, Kash?". I now, realized the true emotion in the voice of my friend. I now knew that he had a great concern to me. Its not that I mean that my best friend didn't have a feeling of care to me. But its just that, I had never seen this much of a comfort and a feeling of "my people" till today. May be its that I saw this "underrated-ly" in the cover of the mad love I had for the so called MY GIRL.
"I am better now!", I had a dull dark face now.
"Alright, come on. Lets get you some lunch. Take rest in the English hour, dude and it'll be cool!" , trying to bite his big chapati roll.
"Did you get to know about them? , he asked referring to the thing which had happened just today.
I said - "LOVE IS POWERFUL!".
"Damned right, Kash! Nobody ever thought that guy could get a cool girl ! He is damn lucky!"
"No, she is the lucky one!"
Now, everybody fixed their eyes on me, a little confused.
"Are you saying that he is more deserving to someone like her? Are you nuts?"
I didn't know what to say. I only said so because, I had gained the experience of how it would be like to have the desired person one loves to himself. One who gets that person at any point of time in life, is luckiest according to me...
"Love is Powerful!", I commented on and I remember all the guys packing up their bags and looking at the noodles in my hot box I was just opening.
Today, they are still committed and are quite a made-for-each-other couple. I am still friends with both of them. And strange is that, they both and everybody of our class knows the truth that she was my crush!
P.S:
After all,
Love is Really Powerful.
